@ShimpakuBonsai
Well $100 a.palmatum was the cheapest tree he had, I also payed for a trident maple $100, another bigger a. Palmatum $150 and a very large black pine for $500. He said he's importing more trees and really needed the space and money. Again, after I paid for the trees, he started calling me posing to be the shipper charging me $200 for shipping, then $150 for "state import tax" then another fee, and another. After each one assuring me it would be shipped after "final" payment. Well final payment never came.
Also I don't want your pity. I know I messed up but I'm an accountable adult and and take responsibility. All I NEED is group awareness bc Y'ALL are my ppl and THIS is my safe place.