I'm not familiar with his videos, but I'll be looking into them now.
My mother died in a car wreck in 2002 caused by an intoxicated driver, my nephew died at 2 years old in 2017 of late onset SIDS, and we lost my older brother to drugs in 2020. I have, unfortunately, become very familiar with losing loved ones.
Mourning looks different for everyone, but do not mourne needlessly. So you lost some trees, stopped making videos for a while. So what?
There is nothing to regret there. We prioritize our emotions, we put life into new perspectives.
So you feel like there are 1000 other things you screwed up along the way. What can you do for them now?
Life is for the living, and we all blow it sometimes. Smile at the little losses, and always remember to say, "I love you."
Thank you, on behalf of all those you've made smile.