Irritable...

[Cadillactaste]

Are there any therapies for this, or is it just something you have to learn to live with? Thank goodness you don't have to go outside the house to work, business places are full of fragrance bombs.

And sorry, but I have to do this....


WAIT, what?! did we miss something? @Adair M got married!???

Basically not saying anything until we do that lung function test. Thought meds I was on finally had it under control. A year and a half was a good run with no additional steroids.

Thanks, yes good thing I don't have to be out with fragrance bombs. Thanks for bringing positive to this mess. At this point in time I can't talk period. But it could be a lot worse. I'm blessed for sure. To not have added stress of losing a job. I can do my husband's office work from our home office and not run into anyone.

I paused with Adair's comment. But thinking he's mentioned a wife before. Now I'm not sure.
@Adair M ?

 

[JudyB]

Basically not saying anything until we do that lung function test. Thought meds I was on finally had it under control. A year and a half was a good run with no additional steroids.

Thanks, yes good thing I don't have to be out with fragrance bombs. Thanks for bringing positive to this mess. At this point in time I can't talk period. But it could be a lot worse. I'm blessed for sure. To not have added stress of losing a job. I can do my husband's office work from our home office and not run into anyone.

I paused with Adair's comment. But thinking he's mentioned a wife before. Now I'm not sure.
@Adair M ?

Well I hope that they find some answers for you, not knowing is the worst.
Thought that meant his ex as well, but then hmmm.

 

[Adair M]

Basically not saying anything until we do that lung function test. Thought meds I was on finally had it under control. A year and a half was a good run with no additional steroids.

Thanks, yes good thing I don't have to be out with fragrance bombs. Thanks for bringing positive to this mess. At this point in time I can't talk period. But it could be a lot worse. I'm blessed for sure. To not have added stress of losing a job. I can do my husband's office work from our home office and not run into anyone.

I paused with Adair's comment. But thinking he's mentioned a wife before. Now I'm not sure.
@Adair M ?

I’ve been married for, I dunno, 28 years?

 

[Cadillactaste]

Well I hope that they find some answers for you, not knowing is the worst.
Thought that meant his ex as well, but then hmmm.

Thanks. They feel these next tests should offer a next step to counter act. Maybe just switching meds again? I'm not sure.

Our Alaskan cruise at the end of May...concerns me. We chose not to do fancy dinning because of sharing table with other guests. So... I guess we will face it like in Honduras. Steroid shot the day before departure,and meds to take if it flares up. Unless it's resolved by then. I'm claiming it resolved.

He's mentioned his ex in passing. But then a wife too. So he has a wedding band on in the photo of Godzilla tree thread. So I think it's a current lady.

 

[Cadillactaste]

I’ve been married for, I dunno, 28 years?

Thought we've heard of a wife many times. Congrats my friend. We hit 30 this July! Thus the reason of the cruise I mentioned since I have absolutely no dream locations my husband wanted to do whale watching.

 

[JudyB]

I’ve been married for, I dunno, 28 years?

I bet she knows exactly how long it's been lol. Lucky girl.

 

[leatherback]

I bet she knows exactly how long it's been lol.

Main questions is.. How long does it feel?

 

[Cadillactaste]

Another round of steroid taper. My husband said I'm just so used to coughing I don't realize I'm coughing. Again with the...avoiding triggers/people and going into public.

 

[Carol 83]

Another round of steroid taper. My husband said I'm just so used to coughing I don't realize I'm coughing. Again with the...avoiding triggers/people and going into public.

Maybe you can find some more frog pots, to cheer you up.

 

[Cadillactaste]

Maybe you can find some more frog pots, to cheer you up.

That pot arriving today did cheer me up!

 

[Cadillactaste]

Maybe you can find some more frog pots, to cheer you up.

Not a frog pot. But one that made me pause. Broken Branch Pottery.
It was sitting at a low bid. Tossed a couple more greenbacks...and won it. Came with two pots in the listing. Second one is rather dark. So a shelf sitter for awhile I imagine.

 

[Carol 83]

Not a frog pot. But one that made me pause. Broken Branch Pottery.
It was sitting at a low bid. Tossed a couple more greenbacks...and won it. Came with two pots in the listing. Second one is rather dark. So a shelf sitter for awhile I imagine.
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I hear shopping is therapeutic

 

[Cadillactaste]

I hear shopping is therapeutic

Retail therapy I believe it's called. I also made a few changes in things that intertwine in my life. Little things...But, I feel good about the changes. I don't need a title to be me. So I stepped down from an admin position on a group. I have to answer to no one...And can just...be me! What a rewarding feeling it is. Especially when I'm 48 years old, explaining my decisions to one younger than I...who is never around...I think I should have done it a long time ago. But felt ones may fear of my leaving them. And that's not it. I'm still there. Just not having a badge beside my name. I can not stress how a load seems lifted from my shoulders...not having to explain myself to someone who has no idea whats going on. I think being home bound...and having to feel my back against the wall for stupid stuff. Rubbed me a bit. Because even though I remain home bound for sometime. I feel so much better overall in spirits.

Life can give us curve balls. People can change from the person you think they are. I'm proof of that when I seen how uptight I've been. I think...sometimes...The overall thing is to understand, we don't understand what others go through. Their life circumstances...Doesn't mean it takes our eyes off of say, one you used to highly respect. Changed drastically. Does that change the respect of what they have accomplished? So I look back thinking a lot with nothing else to do right now. I can't pick up the phone and call a person to chat. (For it brings on horrible coughing spells)So I do a lot of thinking...I think about past relationships. My mother for one. She died and we were estranged. She was wired wrong...I will always grieve the woman she was unable to be. For the chance of second chances are gone...But...I am the woman, mom I am today...Because of those situations. And thus...If I can love a mother with all her baggage so to speak. I can't let current situations...make me lose respect for ones I've admired. I do a lot of praying...for ones other than myself. Because we have no idea the crosses they carry. But it's good to finally feel I'm getting back to a person who...can see the good in circumstances. Finding the good...In situations out of ones control. By taking control of what you can control. So I'm finding myself far less irritable. Seeing good in things again. Though, I'm still digging out of this respiratory thing. I'm finding myself back to finding joy in the little things.

Planning spring work with my trees...And, I feel so blessed by the ones on my bench. On the group I am part of over on FB. I was going to do a post encouraging ones to share their ugly trees. I mean...don't we all have some? Then I looked to find an ugly tree. And I see potential all around me. Even in a stick in a pot cutting from an elusive cultivar that I was able to grab from Brent of Evergreen Gardenworks. And there is no ugly...Only potential. Yeah...I've found myself again I think. It's a good feeling. Maybe it's the retail therapy...Maybe it's the taking pressures off my back that have been building for some time. But...whatever it is...It's good to feel a close resemblance of the woman I once was...who seen good...hunting for good in situations.

Sorry for the book...but...man it feels soooo GOOD to...Just be me again.

 

[Cadillactaste]

I also had the frame arrive for the in laws gift to us for Christmas. Our home...rustic frame since it will go in the newly remodeled basement which has a rustic vibe. Looks great on the current wall color. Which eventually be painted in a grey tone. My husband hates the current wall color.

 

[shinmai]

I can very much appreciate your vulnerability to scents and perfumes. I had horrible asthma as a baby, which I grew out of. Then at 55 I had a respiratory infection, which brought on ‘acute adult-onset asthma’. I never go anywhere without an inhaler. I once ended up on the floor of a department store at a mall, as a consequence of walking in from the entrance that led to the perfume department.
People who don’t have this issue can’t really appreciate how terrifying it can be. It’s essentially the same as drowning in clear air. When I was laying on the floor struggling to breathe, I thought of all the fish I pulled out of the water when I was a kid, and thought, this is all of them getting even with me.

 

[Cadillactaste]

I can very much appreciate your vulnerability to scents and perfumes. I had horrible asthma as a baby, which I grew out of. Then at 55 I had a respiratory infection, which brought on ‘acute adult-onset asthma’. I never go anywhere without an inhaler. I once ended up on the floor of a department store at a mall, as a consequence of walking in from the entrance that led to the perfume department.
People who don’t have this issue can’t really appreciate how terrifying it can be. It’s essentially the same as drowning in clear air. When I was laying on the floor struggling to breathe, I thought of all the fish I pulled out of the water when I was a kid, and thought, this is all of them getting even with me.

My cousin who is in the back end of pharmaceutical end of things. She now fights for ones to get insurance to cover specific meds. Called me when she heard of this last episode. Asking if I was diagnosed with asthma. I said,no... reactive airways with asthmatic tendencies. She works with my specialists practice actually. So she didn't stay on the phone long. Because it taxes me and puts me in fits. So she's sending me some info on a drug she feels may offer assistance to the asthmatic tendencies. And wishes to pass it along to the specialist. And a blood panel to check something. But yes, very scary when I've had my inhaler not be a rescue tool. And your struggling to breathe. It makes me vomit to be honest. Horrible. I just can't get air in...scary indeed.

My husband not thinking...came up with a wooden ceiling tile he wishes to use for the basement. Apparently I sighed. (It's new looking wood. And I asked if he planned on a semi transparent stain.) Apparently no he hadn't. So I irritated him. So he comes up with a freakishly dark stain...and also the clear whatever he intended to use. Up into the main living space. There I am struggling to breathe... coughing...and finally. Yup, vomiting up my Prednisone I had just taken. Lovely. I've finally settled down after hours of coughing. So he's like well I remember now you couldn't handle it on our doors in the bedroom when we had them done. And brought home...(That was before this respiratory issue ever reared its head. I've always been somewhat sensitive.) So he will just not do that treatment. But intends to do the semi transparent stain in the garage and allow it to cure. Before installing.

Like a fish our of water. Good enalogy. Sorry you have this issue too. It just mind boggling some have no issues and others do.

 

[shinmai]

When my wife wants to re-paint the living room or something, she will wait until a time when I’m out of town, or at least out of the house long enough for whatever she’s using to dry completely. Anything portable gets painted outside, and that helps too. My other really big trigger is cats.

 

[Cadillactaste]

When my wife wants to re-paint the living room or something, she will wait until a time when I’m out of town, or at least out of the house long enough for whatever she’s using to dry completely. Anything portable gets painted outside, and that helps too. My other really big trigger is cats.

Fortunate for you she's good at that. I can't get a roller to roll on a wall. Back when scents didn't trigger me.

My husband has settled into the fact my vision is going to look good. He's just used to using this when ones are doing cabins and using natural pine for wood. It will look great in our room with a semi transparent stain. Which will be done down in his shop in the garage. So glad for that. Allowing it to cure and fumes to disempate.

 

[Cadillactaste]

Back at pulmonary specialist. Waiting they messed up my schedule. But going to decide if I need a last steroid treatment. Or if they feel I'm good. Still slightly coughing. But nothing like I was.

 

[Cadillactaste]

Steroid free baby!!!

Moving forward...

Continual talk of lung test when this cough is done.